another subway tale

Ok, I have seen some pretty rude things on the subway... people leaving their garbage, horking and spitting, bags on seats... too many 17 year olds blocking door... but today was the limit...

After several hours of sorting storage areas and closets, I came up with 9 bags of clothes I am going to donate to a women shelter. After completing this task I needed to run out and do some errands.. some of which required using the subway...

As I normally do I made my way to the West Bound subway platform... walk a bit and found a space to stand. One guy on the right, the other on the left...

I am reading one of the large signs in front of me when I suddenly hear a waterfall noise, I turn to see what it is and the man on my right, how I must advise was a drunk, has now started to pee. With a 'What the FUCK are you doing.' I moved away as fast as I could as I didn't want to get pissed on and doing so, the man to my right almost got wet. The man beside me was even more angry and started cursing the drunk. It didn't appear to do any good as he was completely oblivious to the fact that a 6'3' 200 pound man was yelling at him. When the train came he did up his fly and proceeded to board. I made sure I didn't get on the same car as him. I am afraid to know what he did on the train...

I will never be a size six

Ever notice when you go shopping that the only sizes that ever seem to be left on the rack during a sale or xs or size 6. Or that all the of the clothes are sized to fit women with no hips. Unless I accidently landed on the planet stick women... I am in trouble.

I think the last time I was a size six was when I was six. It wouldn't matter if I lost enough weight to make me skeletal... I will just never be a size six. I was born with useless child bearing hips and there is just no way to get rid of them and last time I checked... I have an ass. So why is it that designers still insist, even after sales prove that women need larger sizes, on useing size zero or size one as their base size. Can't they get it through their thick skulls that the average women today is a size 12... not a 6...

I have also come to the conclusion that designers also think that all women are 6'5" tall... every pair of cuffed pants I tried on were at least 6" too long... which is odd because I am almost 5'8" and about a year and a half ago, I couldn't find pants long enough... go figure, huh!

So unless I get in a time machine and go back to grade one... don't count on me being a size 6...

Merry *$#&$#)* Christmas to me...

Ho, ho, hooooooooo... what ever... have I mentioned I don't celebrate Christmas... partly because of religious beliefs and partly because it is a junk heap of greedy consumerism... me me ME! Not mention every Christmas growing up was miserable... drunken relatives and fighting siblings... not my cup of tea! So to celebrate... I watched Black Christmas... it is a grand piece of Canadian Horror and should be watched by all... may horror movie standards where set by this great piece of work... that was last night...

... guess what Santa left me Xmas Eve! A leaky roof... ya... so now I have to replace mine... roofs are expensive... nice gift just for me!!!

Then there was today... oh joyful today... I let my partner drag me to TWO malls... thank the Gods I'm not claustrophobic... I would be screwed... I also noticed today there is a vast difference in the teenagers that hang out at Eaton Centre and Yorkdale Mall... The ones at Eaton Centre really aren't there to hang out... they come, they shop, they leave... they also run in small packs of 3 or 5... Yorkdale is a different matter... they run in packs of 8 or more... stand in the way of everyone and are generally a huge nuisance... I almost knocked one or two over for fun... have I mentioned that 17 year olds annoy the hell out of me!!! At least in between mall stops we had All You Can Eat Indian at my favourite place... Little India... yummy!!!!!!

Some how we timed leaving the downtown area just in the nick of time, shortly after we left there was a shooting in a store we had been near by... when are the cops going to finally get the guns off the streets????????????????

Now I am off to make soap and other gifts... my parents have decided after a year and a half to stop in... for a couple of hours... you see my Uncle is going to be visiting them... they see his at least 3 times a year.. me... every year and a half... I only get a couple hours...

Glad this time only comes once a year!!!!!!!!

stupid useless parents...

Last night I went to see my step sons in their xmas concert... there were alot of people crammed into a tiny gym. A gym that had a ceiling full of formaldehyde... that alone was enough to give me a migraine...

I am finding more and more that I have zero tolerance for children.. there was a lady in front of us with a toddler... she was too busy chatting with her friend to pay any attention to the child... once in a while she would flip her hair and head over her shoulder and say.... Robbie... don't do that and then immediately go back to her chatting... I almost throttle the woman when her child rammed a chair into mine for the 15th time, but I think my look of a rabid wolf was enough for her to pick him up and put him on her lap... of course he squealed and complained the entire time...

Then there are the completely useless parents.. while we where at the Kensington Market Festival of Lights I over heard this conversation...

Trailer trash mother, "Where are you going?"
10 year old daughter, "We are going to throw snow balls at cars"
Trailer trash mother "No you aren't"
10 year old daughter,"Yes I am"
Trailer trash mother,No your not
10 year old daughter,YES I am, I know the rules, no throwing snow balls at cars that are moving or with open windows"
Trailer trash mother,*sigh* "OK"

So the 10 year old and her gang went off to throw snowballs... umm... isn't this consider vandalism... Her mother is useless, along with a huge portion of other parents I see! It actually makes me ill when I see how little these people really care about there kids. There should a test you have to take before you are allowed to have children... if you fail you have that privilege revoked... just like driving a car, you are taking peoples lives into your hands... makes sense doesn't it?

Then I see my friend Shan and her little guy Willy... she is an awesome Mother and he is a great kid... why can't all parents be like her!!!

Kensington Market Festival Of Lights

Last night was the The Festival of Lights in Kensington Market. Cindy, Viki and Emma joined me for the procession. It was a really amazing way to celebrate the Solstice. We wore masks (mine broke), and had our candle. Unfortunately they wouldn't stay lit so for next year we are making lanterns!!! It was a lot of fun, enjoy the pictures are here. We ended the evening with noodles at Pho Hung... Now the light returns!

nightmares...

am exhausted today... I had another fitful sleep filled with nightmare with creatures I cannot explain... sometimes it feels like I have popped into another dimension and am fighting a war I cannot win... at least 'The Rock' isn't trying to kill me in these nightmares...

... since seeing mon's super sexy black ipod... you know the one where you can download videos.. am super jealous and want one... of course before I can buy and ipod.. i need to buy a new laptop... a new ibook is going to get me for $1800 and I don't have that kind of cash right now...

Losing my mind...

Tis the week of not getting everything done, panic attacks and exhaustion... the count down to Christmas has begun. I still haven't gotten all the things I need for Xmas day... the rest of my partners gift, something for his Mom, stuff for his boys. I haven't baked anything yet... I always at least have cookies... cookies for my friends, for the cute older couple down the street, for us... but nothing has been done.. tonight is a write off, due to groceries and other chores, Wed we are going to the Festival of lights in Kensington Market. Thursday is the boys school concert... when am I going to get stuff done!!!!!!!!

Last night V and I went to our friend D's annual Xmas bash. I swear people are going to start thinking we are married. I always go with V and not my partner... of course V is a lot of fun and that is why I love going with her!!!!!!!!!! So there...

So, am off to panic some more...

fa la la la la.... la ... la.. la... laaaaaaaaaaaaa

hmmmm and me and my girls

when I first started blogging I wondered if anyone would read it... but did it matter... after a few weeks of blogging I realized I wasn't doing it for others, but soley for myself... I blog to get things off my chest and out of my head and it feel FAB!!!!!!

here is a portrait I did of me and my gals...

that poor creature

I watched the 1976 version of King Kong last night. This one had Jessica Lang and Jeff Bridges in it. Studios make these movies expecting us to cheer when the creatures are killed. Were are suppose to worry about the fate of the humans. Over these last few nights I have come to realize that unless aliens come to earth for the specific plan of killing the humans just for fun.. well.. we should actually be feeling sorry for the creatures. It's the humans that are evil, not these creatures. We are either ripping them from their homes or invading theirs and then killing them off. I was the one in the audience cheering on the Alien in all the Alien movies. Of course she is going to attack, she was protecting her children.. stupid humans!!! Then of course there are movies where Aliens come to earth to help us save ourselves like The Day the Earth Stood Still, but we are too stupid to listen and end of pissing them off. Or how about ET, this cute little Alien that accidently ends up on Earth and has to try to escape or become and experiment. And if you aren't suppose to get them wet or feed them after midnight... um... let the mayhem begin. Let's stop cheering on the humans people... the don't deserve it... the creatures do. So if you are the theatre watching the latest King Kong and hear someone in the audience cheering on Kong... that would be me!

50's Horror B Movies

I love anything to do with the period from 1945-1965. Everything seemed so uncomplicated then, the clothes are sexy, men actually made an effort to dress well and I love the cars!!! I also love movies from that period. Especially the horror movies.

The last two nights while trying to finish up xmas knitting, I have had the opportunity to watch Revenge of the Creature and Trantula on Scream. Try as hard as they may, the movie tries to make the creatures out to be bad and have us cheer when they are killed. In the case of the creature I didn't cheer. I felt bad for him. He was ripped out of his home to be put on display in a public aquqarium, then tortured and tormented. The scientists did cruel experiments on him to see what he was made up of. I felt sorry for the creature, caged and scared.

I was also hoping he would get his revenge. But it never came. Sure he kidnapped the lovely female scientist and dragged her around for a bit, but in the end he was killed in hail of bullets. Where was his revenge?

Tonight Scream is showing the original King Kong with Faye Ray and then the 1978 version with Jessica Lang. Another creature that suffered by the hands of evil humans.

is it just me...

once again today i listened to a man use an abusive tone with a woman...
i was at one end of the train, they were at the other...
we were packed in like sardines and there was nothing i could do...
i wanted to bolt to the other end and throttle the man spewing the abuse, but the train was filled with 17 year olds and their backpacks and ipods cranked to the the max...
why do i feel like i am the only one who voices out or asks the women if they are ok...
others stand looking at their feet while i strain my neck to make eye contact with the shrinking being...
then when i thought I could move through the crowd to ask her if she needed help...
they were gone...

the panic had begun

... have you ever had cramps and a sinus headache all at the same time.. no... it's not fun... trust me!!!

so the getting ready for yule panic has set in... I still have to make part two of the 3 parts gifts I am making... tomorrow night I am making that... today at lunch I am going to once again see if I can find the part 3.. if I can't I have to just give up... actually... I just did... every one is now getting more of the part two to make up for the part three... confused yet???

we need 4 day weekends...

I can't explain it, I really can't, but watching bewitched puts me in a happy place. I am not sure if it is how simple things seemed back then. What I would do right now for an uncomplicated existence. Or is it because Samantha is the perfect witch. No, wait, what it really is... is Samantha in a time where women were still expected to do as the man said a women was using her power to put 'the man' in his place and being quite clever and sneaky all the while... Not to mention Elizabeth Montgomery, a very extraordinary women and actress who was truly unappreciated!!!

Sat night, we had our pot luck... A, V, C and I. V's guy and my Guy joined in as well... yummy food, too much wine and alot of girly chat... plus V showed us a bunch of her photos... too funny!!!!!!!!!!!

am listening to classic xmas carols.... I think I am going mad!!!!!!!!!!!

slush and snow... YUCK!

remind me again why I live here... I HATE WINTER!!!!!!!!!


it's 16 days till xmas... or in my case 12 days till yule... I am making a bunch of my gifts (that is how xmas/yule should be, not all these consumeristic me, me, me's)... and am done making one part, but now need to make 2 other parts... yes I am being cryptic here as I don't want to give it away... one of the two parts left is easy... I have all things I need, I just have to make them... the 3rd is turning out to be a probably... a huge problem... I can't find the one think I need in order to make it... funny thing is... a month ago when I decided to do it, I could find them far and wide... what to do... what to do...

I thanks to goog... also know as V.... I have the skull illusion scarf pattern... am going to attempt to make it... V will get the first attempt at it... I am also going to try and make a lizzie scarf... will see how that goes...

another hellish morning on public transit

why do men think they can take up a seat and a half by splaying their legs as far open as they can... and why do students think that the seats are their own personal workspace... study at home or at school... I HATE PUBLIC TRANSIT... and I hate it worse when it is full of rude 17 year olds who thing the world is theirs... man I need more coffee...


I think I am allergic to my job... or at least the building I am in right now... as soon as I enter my cubicle my eyes feel like they are on fire, I continually sneeze and my nose hasn't stopped running... can I go on disablility because I am allergic to my job...

Sitting and knitting my xmas gifts has allowed me the luxury of watching tv... for the first time in several months I was able to watch 'This Is Wonderland' I had forgotten how much I LOVED this show.

Public Transit sucks... and all I want for xmas

First of it is too frigg'n cold, it is about a 10 minute walk from my front door to the subway station and I couldn't feel my face by the time I got there... not impressed... then I had to wait for 3 packed trains to go past before I could get on... oddly it was almost empty, but to my sargrine... for a reason.. there was a delay on the subway... we then continued to creep along... station...to station to... you get the point... I was once again late...

am still working through getting xmas gifts... I can't believe the crap they are trying to sell... last night we tried to find some hats for R's two boys... everything we saw was crappy, shoddy workmanship.. CRAP BEYOND CRAP!!!

Someone asked me what I wanted for Xmas... well what I need is a new laptop.. but.. that's a bit much to ask.. what is reasonable is the latest Nigella cookbook feast.. but if you wanted to be extravagant... I would LOVE the entire Buffy Series, or the entire Sex In the City series, how about every movie Alfred Hitchcock or Marilyn Monroe ever made... or all of the Twilight Zones... I would LOVE a black iPOD... but only if you are feeling generous...

If you have children... beware, Karla is a completely free woman - The Quebec government will not attempt to reinstate Karla Homolka's release restrictions through the Supreme Court.

The province said it wouldn't appeal the recent ruling that allows the convicted killer to live and work wherever she wants, and meet with anyone she chooses.

Homolka was released from prison in July after serving her full sentence in the manslaughter deaths of Ontario teens Kristen French and Leslie Mahaffy.

Half asleep and on the subway not a good combination....

... and that is exactly how my morning started... well actually it started with the zipper on my pants breaking and went downhill from there... somehow I managed to miss my stop this morning as well... my brain must have went into some void, because I swear the last stop I head being called out was Broadview, next thing I knew we were at Yonge... i think i was confused by the fact that I ended up having a seat half way into my morning journey to work...

today is also the anniversary of the massacre in montreal of 14 engineering students... light a candle in their memories and pray for an end to violence against women!
this is from cbc.ca

Ceremonies commemorate Dec. 6 attack on women
Last Updated Tue, 06 Dec 2005 07:11:56 EST

CBC News
Ceremonies are being held across Canada on Tuesday, the 16th anniversary of the Montreal massacre, a day of remembrance of violence against women.

CBC ARCHIVES: The Montreal Massacre

The day was established to commemorate the Dec. 6, 1989, shooting deaths of 14 young women at the École Polytechnique de Montréal.

All 14 women were killed because of their gender.

Tuesday in Montreal, there will be several ceremonies to mark the day, including one at the city's Place-du-6-décembre.

The day will also be observed in other locations across the country.

In the 1989 attack, gunman Marc Lepine stormed an engineering class at the École Polytechnique. It was the last day of term before the Christmas break.

Lepine, 25, proclaimed he was getting even because feminists had ruined his life.

where did my weekend go...

Let me tell you a bit about my weekend... As usual there was way too much to do. We were suppose to have a book meeting on Sat, but unfortunately most had to cancel.... which was fine, R and I had to go out and start Xmas shopping and this gave us the opportunity to start earlier. We ran around most of Sat. trying to to find the stuff on our list... we got 1 gift and other things that weren't on the list... it was stuff for the house though so that was good... we are desperately trying to make our house look amazing before xmas. We have been looking for some wrought iron candle holders to mount on the walls and was finally able to find them at Pier 1. I was quite shocked the R liked them as they were very gothic revival... my style... It was a bloody exhausting day...

yesterday.. disaster... we went grocery shopping...nothing we wanted was on the selves... not one single thing... we ended up leaving with stuff we didnt' go in for... stuff we will use, but not what we wanted... then we did some other stops for errands...still couldn't find anything we were looking for... then I made the mistake of going to the Canadian tire near me.... it is one of the worst.. Canadian Tires ever... but yet I keep going there... they never have anything in stock, the shelves are always a disaster, you can never find anyone to help you and when you do they are pissed off... just like all other department store...

was a very frustrating day... I was suppose to go home and write, but I couldn't I was exhausted.. so I sat in front on my tv and knitted and drank hot chocolate. drinking hot chocolate at 8 pm was a big mistake... I ended up tossing and turning all night...

I do have end this with a postive note thought... my good friend mon introduced me to a yahoo group called knitomatic... it is a Toronto group for avid knitters... you can find them when you go into yahoo groups and search the name knitomatic...