the addiction begins........

oh gawd! the addiction begins........

last night there was this horrible movie on... a made for TV from the 90's with Kim Delany....... she was a wheelchair bound famous author, whose first book became the obsession of a serial killer........ he was caught..... new book comes out..... new serial killer... yada yada yada....... I actually watched it to the end because I needed to know who did it! What's even worse is the person I was watching it with only started watching 20 minutes before the movie ended and also had to see how it ended...........

Then this morning........ I turned breakfast television on as soon as I got up to 'check the weather'

I'm afraid to go home tonight........... there might be only static and voices calling to me...................

this is going to become a problem... isn't it............

I am clearly weak..

cable TV egaads!

Thank you Mr. and Mrs. Simopolous

Mr. and Mrs. Simopolous gave me their extra TV.... you guys are awesome! The Dr. helped me retrieve it from their place... you are beyond awesome!

Now what the hell do I do with it??? I don't have a DVD player yet. I have an old laptop I can use in the meantime to watch DVD's but can't find my video cable. Hopefully I can come up with a solution for that. Then I can at least watch movies. That was the entire point of a TV for me. I don't want cable... the only channel I miss is the Scream Network... but unfortunatetly I can't just order that channel... bah humbug... so.........

I stare at it... no it's not actually on when I do this... but I still stare at it...

play it again....

I'm fasting again....... the last one was in April. I would have nomally done another one in August but life was nuts....

I am having mad food cravings and am peeing ALOT!!!!!!!! I am thinking about just moving into the bathroom..........